Time Hop, years later

Last my last post, as you can imagine, so much has changed. I've been married to Marco for 4 years now and together for 10 years. My-My how much has changed.

I was reminded of this blogspot because I have been doing research...
I am currently sitting on my couch, (suppose to be doing homework shhh!) in Germany! Yes, Marco did get stationed in Ramstein AFB and it is awesome over here. I am here temporarily visiting him and I leave to New York City soon, in 3 days but who's counting?

So as I was saying, my research? Well, it's nonetheless on how to move to Europe. Now don't get me wrong here, I love my country of residence (Muricaaaa \m/) but something about Europe makes me crave more than any other place. Deeply enriched with history and the fertile soils make for some of the finest produce and wine I have ever indulged in my life. While I lived in Los Angeles, I had these privileges (or so I thought so myself) however, with the ShitStorm that happened with Japan, I'm afraid radioactive chemicals and waves have surfaced onto the seafood and the environment which tampers with the organic produce we believe we consume. You see, Europe is different in so many ways than U.S, for one, a lot of shit that comes from the US is BANNED in the E.U. That's right, artificial chemicals, dyes, parabens, GMOs, I could go on and on but besides that, Europe is simply beautiful. The land, the people, the history, the scenery. I wish to live here but also give the opportunity for my future children (if i bear) to have the same cultural experiences as I have. My aunt when she was a lot younger, moved to Spain and regrets going back to New York. I finally went to Spain, Madrid to be exact around Christmas time 2014 and I absolutely loved it. Since visiting Madrid, my views have changed of how I'd like to control my life. Take shift and control of my future.

My research has lead me here. Back to my old blogspot. I have abandoned you but I have returned.

Love,
Jacqueline

Goodbye Omar

It's late night in new york city. it's windy, it's cold, its silience with a noise.

I cant begin to express my thoughts for the lost of my great neighboor, friend, inspiration, future boxer, Omar Gaspar. He lived just a few buildings away from mines and my little brother is the same age as Omar. They grew up together, playing ball in the middle of the street. I had no sisters so Omar was my little brother meanwhile Omar's eldest, Carlos was more as a "friend" by default.
Omar was killed October 3, 2009 after he left a Upper East Side party, he was stabbed by someone who attended the party, according to his cousin it was "drunken nonsense"
I knew Omar pretty well, seeing his smile everyday is something that would make me think "this kid is gonna make it far in his life" Every afternoon i'd see him either picking up his little brother alex from school, or going to his gym to practice boxing in his church street gym. He was nice, generous, out-going, he even gave me some tips on how to lose weight. the last time we got to hang out was the night of the boxing match with mayweather vs marquez. i'll never forget the look of his face when he attentively watched all the boxers move, he'd swift his arms fast. my long time friend told me "when omar makes pro, he's gonna be the one who makes it with pride" i'd never thought that would be the last time we would hang out. he was like a little brother to me. i still cant believe he's gone. and as im typing this, i wipe my tears, pray in his memory and wish i could have stopped him for going to the party, i wish i went downstairs just before he left, i wish i could have told him to be more careful.
Omar was cheated. This man who stoled his life took what would have been maybe the greatest boxer. I feel so sad, i can never walk by his building again and think of his absense. Everytime i walked by his building, he would be sitting on his steps, greeting everyone with his big ass smile. If i remember correctly, his last words were "hey jackie, tell anthony i said hi, make sure you tell marco i said what up and be careful" and that was just seeing him on the block.

I was never the one to take a death seriously. Sometimes, i rather ignore it or not believe it, lie to myself that it isn't true. When i heard the news, i didn't believe until i saw the News at 10pm and i cried, cried, cried. I couldnt believe my little "oscar de la hoya" has died. i'll never forget him as long as i live, he was a great kid, so nice, generous, helpful and a loyal friend. and on this day, that i saw his body, he looked so peaceful, i wanted to wake him up, but instead i whispered, adios amigo.

Konnichiwa Part One

Hey everyone,

I'm in japan again. and im here till august 19th. i really miss new york. the food, my friends, my family and the diversity. so let me update since my last post.

I read my last blog post and wow, im totally cool. lol jk but i was impressed that i've kept my resolutions. I have become a lot more "greener" and not in the incredible hulk way but in the way i view the earth. I have been eating lots of veggies, less processed foods, not using plastic bags and reusing items. Japan is a clean country. Literally, rabies-free, every garbage container has different compartments such as burnable garbage, plastic, paper and even ice. I try to buy products that are eco friendly not just because people may think its a phase but because compostable items are more helpful to the cause. im not calling myself an activist, in fact, i dont tell others what they should do but i believe that my actions may cause a influence and that influence a change.

Diet: ugh, who loves to diet? definitely not me. Japan has so many delicious dishes, i cant begin listing without salivating. Like i mentioned in my previous post, im doing a diet regimen to keep the weight off permanently. I mean at least 1 pound a week and my addiction to ice cream crepe to once a week. My fiancee who loves pasta, i eat it once a week as well. My breakfast is cereal with low fat milk, fruit or egg whites with greens. I make sure i eat some kind of color green whether it be green beans, lettuce zucchini or green tea. As for sugar, i have adapted to Splenda, a no calorie sugar.

Plans & the Future: Marco has a year left in Japan, we are eagerly trying to move to Ramstein AFB, Germany. Right now, our options look like either Los Angeles or Staten Island, NY. I am going to attend University of Maryland - Asia Campus if we do marry in time.

This blog is nonetheless about me. My feelings, the new ish, make-up, my life and the people in it.
Till next time. ciao, sayonara!

knock knock

Who's there? who knows.

I started this blogger thing to keep as a virtual journal, for myself. I really feel like i have a great sense of maturity since reading my past blogs on xanga (ancient) i left off my last journal during the beggining of my relationship with Marco who is now my fiancee. I dont know who will read this, and frankly i dont care for "props" or views, it is measly for my own satisfaction of documenting my life, through my keyboard. lol i really hate writing, its because when i was a kid, i broke my hand and always tried to write fast to get something done and it becomes (brain fart) "scribbly. "

Ever since i came back from japan on my month visit to see my boyfriend, i couldnt find another office job. i really miss my 9-5 and i should have stayed here. dont get me wrong, i love my short vacation to japan but damn i left during the fall of the recession. Now, i'm a waitress who is soon to be a assistant manager at a restaurant. It's called Burgers n Cupcakes, sounds corny but food is really good. i never saw myself serving others or even being in food business but it was my last $12 in my checking account telling me to go wherever possible.

It began when i got a call from my bank telling me i had no more funds. it felt like trying on those size 2 jeans to find out you gained more weight but this time it felt like i failed myself financially. i went outside and i went inside this restaurant and asked if they had an opening, at first they said no but luckily, the super's wife, with whom i am friends with recommended me to the manager. they stalled a week till i finally saw her again and got the job. Phew, relief, nothing is worse than rejection. so i started working as a waitress until the pressure. Before i started, i thought, how hard can it be taking orders, inputting orders, make sure they enjoyed their meal and collecting my 15% of the bill. But no, it isn't easy. I still get intimidated by large parties. i wake up every morning saying to myself, it's just another day, more money in your pockets, more bills tomorrow morning. When i do get into the store and see potential customers reading the menu i said to myself "go leave, there's a better place down the block" i really dispise what i do. I love the people i work with, they are just awesome, most of the time when we're all getting along. there's this one girl with whom i have a problem with but i wont waste my time.

This year is about change, indeed we have a new president, Barack Obama and my marriage to marco. My new year's resolution is slight different from others. I want to lose the weight but i want to be healthier, not just lose it but keep it off, ive been eating a lot of salads and enjoying all the dressings and salmon and lemon grilled chicken with balsamic vinagrette or my light italian. anyways, green is the new black. leading to my next resolution, becoming more eco-friendly. yes i've kept my resolutions, and even though my showers are short, i use a Whole Foods bags instead of plastic and recycle i feel better, i feel like im doing these chores, not for myself but for the world I hope that when you or some other stranger sees me picking up a can on the floor that isnt mines to put in the recycling bin, i hope that inspires you to do your part. it may not effect us but it will later on in the future and the future is our children, ask yourselves, what example are you setting for others when they see you polluting. Ok im not a big fuckin eco-friendly gal. i smoke, i dont have one of those starbucks mugs for refills, and i dont always carry a whole foods bag but i try my best, that's all i can really do, just try and hope that your actions inspire someone else and like a virus, a positive one.

so the money is good at my job, not real good but good fuckin enough lol. it ranges depending on how many customers i get during the week on tips, that's not including my base, im talking about the TIPS!!!!!! i didnt even realize how much i was really making till i made one big deposit because i didnt have the time to go to the bank and i was stunned, i made this, all by myself. I did some serious damage to my credit card nothing that i couldnt afford, it's just i feel like i deserve it. Maybe my friend ritz influenced me before but this time i went wild. I love shoes (i bought 5), i bought sneakers (4), uggs and boots (2) a new jacket, all the stuff to make my skin healthy and makeup. OMG MAC is the shit. i love it but now i gotta buy brushes. if this was known to marco how much i've spent, he would be dissapointed but he cant say shit to me, he blew $25,000 so quick, i think it ran away. so i would say i spent $1,200 on stuff.
SO FUCKING WHAT i deserve it, i finally deserve it, and i didnt even make a face when i paid it off because i fuckin deserve it.

this year is about me, what i want and the way i want it. i dare you to stand in my way.


Peace Love and Recycable Bags,
J....